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[shiredancer]

Well, the Red Cross letter arrived and sadly, I'm not an exact match for the patient. I'm really, really disappointed about this -- I *so* wanted to be able to help that guy. So now I'm fretting about him -- I can only hope that somewhere a real match will come up for him. And I feel a little disenchanted with the donor system; I was all set to have it proven to me that matches *can* be made and lives *can* be saved, because my perspective so far from local news stories etc. is that it so rarely happens. Guess I need to hear more success stories.

*sigh* And I feel guilty because I know it's selfish of me to want this so much. Like it's some kind of karmic brownie points or something if I get to donate bone marrow.

Anyway, I'm bummed and it's sorta coloring my outlook lately. Hard to focus on getting Kidlet ready for junior high school and all the other mundane daily-life things going on.

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Thanks *smooch*. Yes, actually my profile has moved up a step, now that it's had extra typing or cataloging or whatever done. So maybe maybe maybe it will match with somebody else sometime.

I guess it's easy to feel like it's all for me, the gift of being able to donate and being helpful and getting the good feelings that go along with that... because the reality of helping someone else's life, maybe even saving it? That's unreachable, like a fairy tale.